Now juz alone here,wif crazy mood… Juz take dis chance 2 write blog here.. 2006? How 2 describe ya? Its a horrible yr 4 me or wat? I reli duno…. n where 2 start 2 describe? Anybody wana hear from which topic? Juz tell me.. anyting can tel u here.. ok den, let me juz talk anyting s possible.. my life is reli horrible..at 1st i taught its reli a great life… coz, in science stream? but everyting started crazily day by day… D level of stress getting increase… its never decrease til I felt myself successful done sumtin.. School? Dere’s a long story..2 those whu is not my sch-mate might weird 4 u? Now,i’m in d 1st claz of pure science stream.. next year oso.. s d previous blog,i had mention..its a big suffered in dat claz.. but as got two teachers guided me..n i nid 2 stay in dat claz 2.Sori 2 my frendz dat supporting me… Its not i disappointed u all but..i had tink is bout my studies here..I promise no matter how crazy i would b in dat claz,i vil persist everytin dere.. but vil not get sad wen i’m outside.. as sum of my frendz..dey reli observed me..its truth..i had been asking dem too..I duno y,dat’s a weakness at me o at dem (clazmatez) ? Its whu wrong now? I reli duno.. i realized mani tings after my form teacher told me sumtin..but now she is in Malacca? Oh,my god i veri miss her.. but can say..round 70-80% my clazmatez x reli like her…i reli x understand y my clazmatez juz against me wat i did? til i made sum displine prob at sch..its juz a small matter,dun wori..I’m not d gal dat killing sum1 or juz selling drugs.. Coz,I had joined two clubs dat `anti’ 4 dat..Juz hope i can cooperate wif my clazmatez next yr,as i can… I juz wan a hapi life in d claz while studying..isit dat oso wrong? 2st time in my life i get dis? 1st time is standard 1.. is reli sad case… I was bullied..haha but now no more…dat time juz 1 month like dat..coz dey duno me…but y,sum of my frendz r so close wif me wen form 2 juz separeted wen form 3 time? Y d god wan 2 treat me like dis? Gues i changed my life 2 times…hope next yr my life dun change a such crazy life…teacherz? Among all d teacherz gues so juz got 2 teacherz noe me well a bit..others juz duno whu Allegra is.. sum juz taught I’m veri not active of anytin..actuali if i give a chance of a certain activity..i vil try my best 2 do it.. but dis yr,my spirit getting low n low…i duno y.. i kip telling myself 2 cheer up..but failed..next yr? I feel back my own spirit r back..after went 4 tuition 4 3 weekz like dat… Its juz like i went back 2 sch.. without uniform…I’m form 5 now..i feel dat.. learning form 5 topic now ya..
Family? I duno wat reli can say ya… dis yr, can say my family got sum trouble n bad luck 2… Juz i wana get out of dis topic..but i wan 2 let sum1 noe dis.. aldo now in Pangkor..but vil back 2 home,sit on d chair n read my blog? Sori,juz my uncle got mani type diseases..same goes 2 aunt..i duno wen dey reli go 2 heaven or i go 1st? Juz unlucky i means.. haiz, 4 those x reli noe my family background is nvm.. I repeat agen, i got 4 siblings include me.. I’m d youngest..dun get shock.. i got a niece..she so cute lah.. haha.. but seldom c her..coz,my whole family probs r on buzy.. so everytin must plan n tink b4 do it.. my family can say quite big..coz,relatives oso mani.. Cousin,do u reading dis blog? Dere’s 4 cousin in my list here..2 of dey is siblings..haha.. oklah, nothin much…hope chinese new year gif my family wealth & healthy… chinese new year coming soon.. juz around 2 months and a weekz guah..
Frendz? Gues dis is interest 1? duno lah.. Juz saw two of my primary sch frenz in tuition.. we x reli wana meet but..its god fate.. v juz duno..suddenly d god let me meet dem..funi? but sad is..v r grown up much compare last time..even myself oso.. gues mani of my old frenz oso hard 2 regonize me… i reli changed much..2 my old frenz if u reli read dis.. i wana say,i mis u all… SPM coming..study loh… dis yr oso i noe mani new frenz.. through? online.. in school.. n in tuition s well…i noe one frendz same tuition claz.. haha,now can bcome close frend guah.. coz,v almost got same interest.. reli thankz 2 her dadi fetched me back from tuition… oh ya,i noe sum of juniors n seniors oso….haha..juz feel back my spirit back…last time usali ppl taught i’m cool n not frendly..but its x true til u noe me.. gues,my pic might gif u a bad sight but nvm..i noe myself is not reli 100% gud face..but not means i got bad heart.. Quite hapi majority d frenz i noe dun misunderstand me.. bcoz,last time u usuali misunderstand by my frenz..dey juz talked wat dey reli think off me.. n tohers ppl blieve dat..so i juz noe,one day it vil juz get off all those events in my mind..like now.. freedom of all dat..but now stil got ppl misundertand me..i’m a bad gal? i dun blame u, ocz i noe it y… i expreinces b4,how dun i duno?
Hapi? Dis is hapiness reli in a low level.. means sad is more den hapi..i duno y…bcoz of stress? Sum might c my stressful here..yup..but sum seeing me is hapi go lucky person? Ya,one of my clazmatez juz sent me letter last month bout homeworkz ya.. juz she said i’m hapi go lucky person..but is not true.. juz she x reli noe me deep…s d begin of dis blog.. i gues i mis out sumtin…majority my clamatez r not reli understand me well.. n duno bout wat i’m duin or anyting… compare d frenz dat i have now.. oh ya,may b sum of u wil tink..dun i have a best frend? ya,i dun have..n i dun wish 2 have…is x bcoz i got phobia or wat…juz i dun wan 2 suffer anymore about best frenz… i juz onli got good frenz,close frenz n old frenz.. real best frenz dun exist anymore.. 16 yrs i had been alive in dis world but d hapinese i got is veri less..i felt myself x get enuf hapiness..y dun god juz accompany me here? Its reli suffering wen sad n stress combine 2gather…do any1 feel dat? ya,i’m sure majority vil feel dat.. but is a kind of craziest 4 me here… but never mine, from d sadness i learned mani tings..i learned y human vil sad,cry n others feelings bout sad or unhapi tings… but i not reli noe wat’s hapi? wen v vil hapi or wat… Me here got a person dat cried behind which i duno…but i can feel dat.. bcoz she can’t get me openly? I juz wana tell dat person,u can get me.. I’m oways here.. i dun wan u sad bcoz of me… i wan 2 c hapines..gues d god sent 3 galz 2 me started 2005.. god,i ask u 2 accompany me? but y sent 3 galz n make my life complicated? Y? Y dun god accompany n cheer me up sumtin 2 chase out d sadness? 2 d person,i wana say..god sent u 2 rescue me but x crying behind… dun care wat claz u r in now.. i noe status does x means wat..til ur personal prodigy can prove whu r u.. like me now..its a suffering.. if god gif me two ways 2 choose.. status or hapines.. i would rather choose hapines.. coz,i had experience dat reli a pain in d heart.. and one from d 3 galz n gone away one yr..hope she vil 4get anytin bout me.. juz i dun hope 2 c,one day she come back 2 me n cryin dat she too sad of her’s bf o wat.. dat’s i reli faint out!
Gues another 1 i miz out? another 1 is i oways quarelled 2 each others..i duno y…may b is d way 2 noe each other more well? Haiz,…god.. i had done wat i wan..juz i reli tired! I duno she vil read dis blog anot..but i can bet is she read half of dis blog.. coz? I duno,she oways taught wat oso i vil do? but i wan 2 tell her here is..x everytin i can do 4 u.. i reli tired here.. sori..if i one day i faint out..we nid 2 say gudbye 2 each others…coz,wat i wan from u is veri less.. can say bout 40% onli..not even half.. n dun ask me wat u wan me 2 do,..coz i wan from u is a lots! Cute Baby,i’m sori here.. Oklah,2nite til here.. 2007 is coming..mani tings waitin 4 me 2 do here.. haiz,nid 2 study hard n smart…til SPM end.. i juz noe d dayz left around less den 350 dayz? duno lah.. gudbye n gudnite everybody…thankz 4 reading my blog..gues,sum of u might like 2 read blog..den my blog is suitable 4 u…its damn long isit? haha, i noe dat.. but its full of logically experiences oo..
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