Time can show the REAL success… if you do not give up but keep going on… I’m one of the successor….

Life juz continue after a fortnite yup! Em,gues i vil begin wats happened after d previous blog.. If u read,u might noe wat i ever did d bad tings? Dun dis is d interesting blog u ever read? I duno,mind comment if u support? Whu exactly is Allegra 2 new user here dat juz know me ya.. by reading dis u can gues whu i’m actuali r! a fortnite=14 dayz… wat u ever can do in 14 dayz? Physical? or juz mentally? 4 me is both! My life get changed! how? Juz i’m awake.. not in dreaming…but in reality! Let me juz tell sumtin u dun ever noe Allegra’s(A) feeling… Coz,A juz hurt both person b4… in previous blog,dat is Josephine(J) n Eunice(E).. I noe,mostly in percentage i got 99% did wrong! Do i? I duno,ask god… my life doesn’t ever hapi.. except 2005 yup! Juz both of dem bought me a weird feeling dat i never been through! Do god sent dem 2 me? Gues ya… Em,gues got misunderstand myself brought in2 dis prob… My fault! I had done sumting wrong! Since primary sch,i got a terrible phobia i ever got! Dat’s bout frenship.. Dun c i got lots of frenzz but last time i dun ever noe bout frenship! But now,i had master bout dat prob n learned more ya! D phobia never disapear coz,i did sumtin wrong… Hope god vil 4gif me.. but i reli duno y,its brought me a kinda not hapi feeling.. Juz feeling crazy.. I canot cry in anywhere… Coz,i dun wan ppl taught i’m weak? I canot release out my stress…coz,eveybody vil go far away from me.. but how i gona release all those bad feeling? I’m sure u wana noe… Den,i got release out through J & E… Bcoz,i noe dey would understand my feeling… I’m reli guilty but actuali wat i scolded dem.. is 2 scolding myself… I reli hope dey would noe i not reli wan dat 2 happen… I’m reli a stressful person,i admit! d blog (Summary of Life) reli can prove many tings about me… Both of dem had read it.. but i duno wat vil dey feel… Stress 4 now is homework.. from last yr,i reli hard 2 catch up all.. but now i vil try my best… Curiculum activities? When i’m in afternoon session,i’m x reli active coz i got transport prob aldo all teacherz duno n get scolded.. Enough! I had suffer it! but now i’m last yr in my sch,y dun i do d best i can? Sumtimes i reli feel disapointed bout teacherz! Dun dey noe whu i’m? Reli sad n hurt a teacherz would ever ask i’m a new student in dis sch? U noe,i reli hate ppl saying me is new student! Juz bcoz of d new student dis word change mani tings! Dis prove teacherz dun ever care whu i’m.. actuali i duno myself feel got talent in anyting but y teacher dun pay attention on me? Y? Gues by homework,dey noe whu i’m… but dey duno i’m crying in typing dis blog! I so mis my last yr form teacher! Where r u? Teacher,i so miss u ah!!! I’m so suffering in my own claz.. Juz yesterday,got a incident happened.. actuali i shouldn’t say dat.. coz,is my clazzmatez prob… include me,coz i’m one of d clazmatez in my claz.. Got a teacher gif d homework..in short time..n wan d homework pass up by 7.30am on time… Juniors,if u saw my monitor n a perfect walking pass through…prove dat day is d scary day ever happened! Den,one of my fren is prefect.. she cried…Coz,head of prefect scolded her.. but another teacher misunderstand.. n make d trouble out… While dat,in moral claz.. one of my clazmatez started 2 complaine 2 dat teacher bout another teacher giving homework too lots n pas up on time.. after saying all begging,she cried… When i saw her dat time,i reli wan 2 cry man!! But i dun show out.. I canot cry in wat situation man! I stil remember,a teacher gif my clazmatez a phobia dat.. nid 2 do work on time.. SO,my clazmatez all get frightened…Continue dat side,d prefect.. means my fren.. juz told my moral gals dat saying my claz duno how 2 manage time n not mature… Is hurting man… However,i noe my clazmatez vil continue kambatie! Duno y,dis yr sum of my clazmatez changed bit.. duno.. fate? My mood reli x so gud.. dat day i means… so,sorry 2 my sch-mate dat day i seem weird.. but i gues,i pretend d best! 4 not show it out.. u noe,d phobia i ever scare….all my clazmatez crying in d same time… if reli happen,i reli duno wat 2 do.. About phobia,i got nitemare… 17 yrs,i juz got a few times nitemare…but duno y since 2 jan 07… i got nitemare every nite! Frenz,is every nite ya! Dun u scare? Now i reli reli scare… coz,i dun dare 2 face wat d god vil gif me d signal! Ya,i can detect a bit bout god gif me d bad or good tings… Dun blieve? Nvr.. i vil try my best… u noe,got one time.. d nitemare reli scary man! Juz dat day i awake n canot sleep… can’t gues wat vil happen! but now noe… god fate! Ya,fever? May b dat is d one from mani bad luck tings… I stil attend 2 sch when i got fever.. dat time,my history teacher nearly misunderstand me… I stil remember,i cried bit when assembly… tears come out without forcing… i duno y,sumtimes…my tears come out automatic.. reli! I dun cry,if a pain…a sad stori… or anyting… except a strongly hurt of wat ever i did bad tings b4! Hope my sch-mate vil understand… Dis week,i never have a nice sleep.. i gotta open pc n print d info 4 my sch work… its tiring man! but nvm… Since i’m small,i learn pc through myself aldo dis pc is my bro from my parents $$$.. graphic? I gotta investigate more after SPM…  J and E… I juz hope dey vil understand my feelings n 4gif me… Wat i did got my own reason,s i told dem b4? I hide my biggest secret… is 2 wan god punish me! I dun wan god punish me later…I wan now! I’m reli suffering.. I reli heart pain 2 hurt dem… Juz duwan dem 2 realize i’m in d extremely sadness! I duwan brought dem any sadness too… B4 noe dem,dey r hapi go lucky galz.. but after noe me,dey changed! Same goes 2 me.. Whu dun ever feel sad n hurt seeing d most close person leave u alone? Whu dun ever feel guilty when u did sumtin wrong? I’m ! I reli suffering… I shouldn’t hurt dem,juz 2 `tebus diri’ bout pass i did.. I too selfish!Not i dun wan share my sadness 2 dem..is d sadness i face not reli related 2 dem..is unfair! D punishment i vil responsible… Frenz,pls dun even bcome like me…dat i did all dis… Wat i hurt J n E r not a correct way 2 get out urself in2 punishment.. If u r wrong,is u! Dun decline! (E),i dun blame u dat… u stil angri wif me… Bcoz of me,u cut ur hand? U noe, when i noe dat…i more blame myself… every second i dun stop 2 blame myself 4 wat i did.. I oways blame myself,scold others ppl juz dat actuali i’m scolding myself… its reli fool! (E),i noe u got hurt much..no matter from me,or any1… If u still angri me,i reli dun blame u! 2day,i stay back 4 ELS sociaty… i reli hurt…i juz wan 2 talk 2 (E) but failed.. bcoz she reli got my hurt.. I pretend a lots.. I dun wan pretend anymore! ITs suffering! (J),no matter wat,i vil respect u…. Wat i did b4,i reli blame myself til hate myself… Whu dun ever hurt 2 seeing mostly close get hurt? I reli changed much in 14 dayz…Juz hope u vil 4gif me… I mis u… I reli mis u! Wat about u,i vil try 2 find out… coz,i stil LoV u… I learned mani tings… Thankz god 2 gif me have a chance 2 recorded all dis events… Coz,if i dun write out,i reli duno wat 2 do….2 releaze out,,,

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